My mind has been wandering for days unable to make sense of the sea of chaos which surrounds my being. I have been adrift. Without anchor or guidance my tormented soul seeks closure. My head locked and bolted that door many moons ago, but my heart is still stumbling along unable to pick up the pieces and move on. Secretly I would like to think that my ex wrote this little number for Bruno Mars, and somewhere out there he is still softly singing it to me!
“When I Was Your Man” -Bruno Mars
Same bed but it feels just a little bit bigger now
Our song on the radio but it don’t sound the same
When our friends talk about you, all it does is just tear me down
Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name
It all just sounds like oooooh…
Mmm, too young, too dumb to realize
That I should have bought you flowers
And held your hand
Should have gave you all my hours
When I had the chance
Take you to every party
Cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby’s dancing
But she’s dancing with another man
My pride, my ego, my needs, and my selfish ways
Caused a good strong woman like you to walk out my life
Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made, ohh…
And it haunts me every time I close my eyes
It all just sounds like oooooh…
Mmm, too young, too dumb to realize
That I should have bought you flowers
And held your hand
Should have gave you all my hours
When I had the chance
Take you to every party
Cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby’s dancing
But she’s dancing with another man
Although it hurts
I’ll be the first to say that I was wrong
Oh, I know I’m probably much too late
To try and apologize for my mistakes
But I just want you to know
I hope he buys you flowers
I hope he holds your hand
Give you all his hours
When he has the chance
Take you to every party
Cause I remember how much you loved to dance
Do all the things I should have done
When I was your man
Do all the things I should have done
When I was your man
How does one close the door, heal the heart, and move on to the next chapter in their life? Suggestions needed for my sanity, and the sanity of my friends and followers that may be sailing a similar ship!